Sometimes we want time to walk slowly... sometimes we wish that time run like an athlete in a 100 m race. Different situations, different wishes. I never wanted the happier moments I was spending those days to end ever. Alas! It was almost like asking for a 'Amrit' to become immortal. That time ended very quickly while the last two years were like a hell for me. Time was always moving with the same pace. The only difference was the way I was looking at it.
On August 31st, 2009, I had mailed her to let her know my feelings and get the answers to all those questions that had been puzzling my mind for long. Some of them were answered, many were left, though I could finally convey my feelings to her. I had hoped that my mind would finally be at peace, but I was wrong. You just can't let go so easily the memories of your first genuine crush. Things have changed a lot in last one year. I am not a UG anymore and have got a beginning as well. If I had thought that moment that slowly her memories would be erased out of my mind, then I was wrong.
She is still there in my heart and mind. I still think about her whenever I get little emotional. Perhaps this city won't let me forget her. She was never involved and so she must have forgot my mail within a couple of days only. But she remembered it very well that I should never feature anywhere in her social networking profile. A friend request on Facebook was rejected 3 months later and I could never muster up courage to send her a request ever again. She has put a stop from her side but I haven't been able to do so despite many efforts.
A year later things haven't changed much for me.
